Music/art related vent (need advice)

anyone else feel like they have a musical “destiny” in a kind of music they don’t like?
for context i’m 13 and trying to learn an optimist
i feel like i’m going to make boring music that no one would find too loud or too crazy or too forward
but it’s probably just the fact that ITS TWO AM YAAAAY
for all people awake at this hour i am deeply sorry

oh i’m an idiot
i typed optimist instead of ‘instrument’ because i have no soul left in my body